May 06, 2006
Is it supposed to feel different?
Today my boss came into my office and asked me how it felt. I knew what he was talking about but since I haven't really felt anything I prodded him.
"It feels great to be done with that one brief for that one client."
"No," he said, "How does it feel to be done with school?"
I'd thought about my answer to that inevitable question for the last week or so and I really don't feel any different. Sitting here the morning before graduation feels like any random morning before copyright.
Way, way back in the day when I finished undergrad there was a tangible difference. The day I turned in my Epistemology final in December 1994 I hopped on my bike to ride home and I was hit with this weird fit of yawning. It was a nervous tic, basically. I yawned myself to sleep that night out of uncertainty about the future. I was right in being nervous about finishing undergrad since I bounced around from random corporate job to random corporate job for the next 6 years.
So, no I don't feel any different after finishing law school. For one, I have the same job anxiety I had twelve years ago. The firm I work at now isn't hiring so I need to find a job although I promised to hang around to write briefs until July. Whether that promise gets me places in August is another story although I'm confident about my boss's pull with other firms in the area. Also, 12 years ago I was single with no prospects. Now, I've been with the same woman for over 10 years, have been married for almost 5 years and have lived in the same house for almost 4 years. Stability is something I have now that I didn't the last time I graduated. Plus, I still feel like I'm learning. Everytime I hear about a court decision I feel the need to read it, analyze it and think about the arguments that should have been made or could be made on appeal. I suppose it's a tad cheesy to say that a lawyer never really graduates but that's how I feel right now.
May 03, 2006
I took my last exam on Tuesday morning - Copyright. It was very anticlimactic since it was a two-hour exam based on stuff I had a pretty good knowledge of four years ago thanks to my geekiness. It was probably balanced by the 4 1/2 hour Mediation exam last week. What a pointless exercise.
My Fed Jur exam was awesome. There were only seven of us in the class and two weeks before the exam the professor told us we were guaranteed a 5 (C+) based on our class participation so we didn't have to take the exam if we were happy with the 5. Well, only one of us didn't take the exam and my theory is that he will get the only 8 (A) in the class because clearly he was smarter than the rest of us.
Not sure why I posted this. I'm feeling a little loose since I'm done until bar study ramps up in a few weeks. My graduation robe is black with purple velvet. I wish it was purple felt so people could do the "Is that felt?" joke during the entire ceremony.