Holding Pattern
Not much improvement to be reported this morning. The list of side-effects is about the same: unrelenting bone pain, slight nausea, no appetite, all-over general feeling of yuck. It can best be described as having a really bad hangover and a really bad flu all at the same time.
Cancer cells are strong and tenacious. It takes strong and tenacious medicine to kill them. I keep trying to think about the fact that if these drugs are making me feel this way, they must really be doing a number on any cancer cells that thought they were going to be hanging out in my body. Those thoughts don’t make the discomfort go away, but they do help to put it in perspective and make it a little easier to “just keep swimming.”
Comments
That sounds quite unpleasant, to put it mildly! But I guess you're right about the cancer cells... if they were easy to get rid of, having them wouldn't be a big deal.
Hope you feel better!!
Posted by: Dave! | July 29, 2007 09:51 AM
Oh no! :( Sending you lots of prayers and vibes for the bad stuff to pass through really quickly!!! Keep thinking positive. (((HUGS)))
Posted by: PT-LawMom | July 29, 2007 10:45 AM
Hi there: I'm here via Whymommy. I just posted a link to your site on mine . . . only wanted to offer some support and encouragement.
I will come back and read more as it is midnight and I must work tomorrow.
Blessings to you and your family. Know that there are many of us out here in blog-land who are sending prayers and good wishes to you and anyone else fighting cancer tonight.
Posted by: JHSEsq | July 30, 2007 02:03 AM
When you feel sick with the flu, you feel like you're never going to get better. But look at it this way -- you know that in the next day you WILL feel better and moreover, that this yuckiness is leading you to a more important healthy state.
My advice? Take one minute at a time. Exhale, then face the next one. And the next one. And each minute you'll be closer to feeling great again.
Thinking of you...
Posted by: nina | July 30, 2007 07:02 AM
Deep bone pain so sounds awful. So sorry to hear that. Lots of love coming your way!
Posted by: Mieke | July 31, 2007 11:06 AM