March 27, 2005
There is a cycle
That everyone goes through... I think. Apathy....Energy...Apathy... etc. Some people stay on the high or the low longer than others. But they are basically mood swings. They are driven by the things that we say to ourselves about our own abilities and actions.. our self dialog. I have seriously been on the down slope for awhile...and I think I hit bottom. So I promised myself... for the next 30 days, I am going to put my best effort into my work. I am NOT going to worry about the results, I am just going to do what I need to do as well as I can. I want to have some pride in what I do. Come April 30th, I want to be able to say I spent these last 30 days well. I lived them, I did what I needed to do, I did what i WANTED to do... I will not regret them. Every day... I will come here and write where I am in the cycle... how I am progressing. Writing in this blog is a matter of facing myself, facing my fear of disappointment, facing my negativity, facing my laziness, and calling myself to attention. I will not go silently into the night....
Posted by intetsu at March 27, 2005 10:20 PM
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